Friday, September 23, 2005
Quoted from Maman as I was telling him that all of a sudden, i'm feeling emo. I don't know where and how this feeling come about. Everything in life seems so unpredictable. 2 years ago, I used to think about my future. I'm always hoping that I can be an Accountant since I frequently top the class in accounts. However, i've been having this bad feeling that I wouldn't make it to poly, don't even think about JC. All my goals, where are they now? I've been slacking away. This prelim finally ended. I must say no effort was put into all the papers. Mark my words, NO EFFORT! Sigh, how I wish I could turn back the time. To the time when I know which path am I walking towards.
James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on,
remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
Do listen to James Blunt songs. He really do sing great songs! I'm emo after listening to this. This all bring me back to 2 years back, when I was with X (let the guy be 'X'). And whenever I see him around in school, I saw a ray of hope that we'll get back together. I made a mistake in life. The biggest mistake. Let me meet someone like him, a guy that will always be there whenever I needed him, a guy who is as understanding as he is and he'll be my everything. Nevertheless, life still has to go on. I'm looking forward to the day when I can get my life settled down like my ladies, they have great boyfriends.
I've to stop emo-ing. As much as I want, I can't. DOUBLE-SIGH!
What on earth am I doing? I've school tomm. And i'm still here.
Have a good night rest.
4:58 PM